Jan 25, 2017

everything changes

Well, the cast list is on the wall and I can officially say that I will be dancing seven shows of Swan Lake as Odette/Odile with the Maine State Ballet. I have been writing about rehearsals for some time now, but now I know the dates I will be performing are as follows:

March 24th and 25th at 7:00pm
March 26th at 2:00pm
April 1st at 2:00pm
April 2nd at 2:00pm
April 8th at 7pm
April 9th at 2:00pm

I may have mentioned this previously, but originally I was to split the twelve performances right down the middle with a fellow MSB principal ballerina. For personal reasons, she is no longer going to be able to participate in the production. We are unsure as to whether or not she will rejoin later down the road, but we are pushing forward in her absence. The show must go on.

I don't know if she reads this blog or if she will ever see this post, but I just want to publicly say how much I am going to miss having her around. We are very different people, but we had this in common. I can say in earnest that her presence in the company made me a better dancer, that her beautiful and delicate style taught me grace, and that her incredible work ethic made me work harder. I have noticed there is a sense of hollowness without her around. I'm not sure if anyone else feels it too, but every time I walk by her dressing room, I feel a pang of loneliness.

This makes me the only active principal ballerina at Maine State Ballet (the infamous Janet Davis - former prima ballerina - is still dancing, but has retired from principal roles). I'm the last female "adult" in the company. The only woman that is out of school and juggling the "real world" with a dance career. It's not that I felt competitive with my fellow principal ballerina, but her presence certainly made me push myself further. Now I must turn that motivation inwards.

I do hope the looming mammoth of a task that is Swan Lake, will really bring our company together. Rehearsals are gaining speed. More updates soon 💓

Thanks for reading and check back in soon by subscribing! You'll receive updates on new posts, giveaways, and discounts. No spam here, just dance. See you all soon.


  1. I commend your willingness to try. However, if your Swan Lake is a full length production the role of Odette/Odile is extremely strenuous and I fear with the schedule of performances you posted you are setting yourself up for a serious injury. Can't MSB get a guest artist to help with that schedule?

    1. Hi Jill! Thank you so much for your comment. It is definitely a challenging role and I am learning that very quickly. One of MSB's proudest attributes is that all of their dancers are "home grown." We've never hired a guest artist to dance a principal, solo, or even corps role. We have 12 shows of Swan Lake and I'll be dancing 7, while a fellow company member will take the other 5. The good news is, we are cutting the Black Swan variation to lighten the load some, and I will not be in the other 5 shows at all, so I'll have a small chance to rest. Any advice?

    2. Hi Rhiannon! The first 3 perf. in 2 days will be a bear. See the Co. Phys therapist so you are in the best condition possible. I know you are rehearsing as much as possible. once you have it in muscle memory let it flow... I'm glad the Black Swan role is being reduced. That should be a help and I'm sure you don't need me to tell you to pamper your feet! Sending good vibes your way and wishing you Merde!