Just the musings of a small-town professional ballerina, business owner, wife, and beagle mama as she attempts to make it through this thing called life.

Apr 30, 2016

thirty day blog challenge

In light of new chapters, adventures, and discoveries that I am soon to encounter, I'm embarking on a little blogging journey. Straight off of Pinterest, I think a thirty day blog challenge will be the perfect tool to aid a little self-reflection. Just do it, right?

I encourage readers to follow along on their own blogs and put a link to your articles in a comment below, or even to just journal along in a diary. :) I think this will be fun. Nothing would make me happier than for you guys to share along with me, so don't be shy!

The goal is to put out a post a day, and I can almost guarantee that won't happen, but it's something to aspire to. Here are my rules to this challenge for those following along:

  1. the prompts are guidelines. you don't have to stay firm and true to the topic.
  2. it doesn't have to be perfect. just get it out.
  3. be as honest as possible.
  4. try to stick to the timeline (but don't beat yourself up when you don't).
  5. pictures make everything better.

Maybe we'll learn a thing or two about each other along this journey! First article will be up tomorrow morning. I can't wait to see what everyone else has to say. Here we go!

Apr 25, 2016

performance tights review {update}

You may remember my post about Gaynor Minden's Performance Tights. Some girls obsess over a new pair of shoes, some girls fawn over their new sweater (which, let's get real, I do that too), and some get giddy over a pair of tights with strategically placed holes in them... Can you blame me?!

I hate wearing my tights in my shoes. Always have. I typically compare it to trying to sew with gloves on, it's just not right and makes life more difficult. At $17.00 a pair, these tights are not cheap (and don't forget the $10 shipping). And you can't find this product at a discount supplier like Discount Dance Supply or even Amazon.

So yeah, these things aren't easy to get a hold of. With that said, I had these tights for about half a year and wore three different pairs through an entire run of Nutcracker... Not bad, not bad. Seven shows, three dress rehearsals, and they made it out in pretty good shape (except for the one pair that got a little a lot discolored by my royal blue Dew Drop trunks).

So I began MSB's run of Sleeping Beauty ready to rely on my dandy performance tights. I had saved them only for performances, so not to damage them. But, lo and behold, as I slipped them on, I found a run down the back of the leg. With a sigh, I grabbed my other non-royal-blue-stained pair and put those on instead. I look down and yet another run down the leg. Ugh! I can only assume the fabric from costumes snagged the delicate tights on their way on or off my body. I resorted to trying to make due with the blueish pair, so I inspected them before putting them on. Another run.

It happens, I know, and is almost to be expected. But I was really hoping that these tights would have a little more life in them considering they are expensive. I felt it was only right to deliver an update to my lovely readers!

My latest trial run will be with Body Wrappers' Mesh Backseam Convertible Tights. Although they are more expensive, I ended up saving money since the shipping was cheaper. I'll let you know what I think soon!

Apr 21, 2016

endings {sleeping beauty}

And with that, Maine State Ballet's Sleeping Beauty is over. It was an adventure to say the least, one that I really think will stick with me forever. I learned more about myself as a dancer, and what exactly my body is capable of. It gave me a wonderful excuse reason to connect with friends,  both new and old. It helped me earn a sense of self-confidence that I didn't have when this journey began. Even Aurora herself came with her own curriculum of learnings. She taught me how to be gentle, sweet, and innocent (both onstage and off). She taught me how to be gracious, energetic, and good. I am so honored to have been able to take on the challenge.

{photos courtesy of maine state ballet}

{photos courtesy of Beth Pelletier}

I'm sad to say goodbye to life as Aurora, but as our director said to me, 

"Now it's just onto the next thing and it will be even more spectacular."

For now, it's back to wedding planning, graduating, a short April vacation, and beginning a new chapter of life with a new job.

Apr 14, 2016

two weekends down

Alright, alright, time to get back to blogging. You know how life gets during shows, everything kind of spirals into disarray - like when you're standing in the cool lake mid-August and fan the water around you with your cupped hand, twirling violently... I'm not the only one that still does that right?

Two weekends - four shows of Aurora, three shows as Fairy of the Golden Vine, and two as the Sapphire Fairy - are down and all that remains is two Golden Vines, one Sapphire, and one Aurora. Someone asked me last weekend if I was relieved to only have one more show as the princess or if I would like to continue the role. I shrugged with a smirk. I am relieved to have four over and done with and am so glad that I feel good about the way they went, but it breaks my heart to be slowly releasing the character I have bound myself to. Endings are hard, guys.

I'm sure I'll have plenty of sentimental words and life-learnings for you guys once the run is through. I'll save you the sappiness until then.

In other news,

 I've been having an interesting go with the end of my senior year. As you may know, I'm in the process of writing a novel for a class. A novel about ballet. In this class of about a dozen people, we are required to print up copies of our writing and hand them out to our classmates for review. We give each other tips, constructive criticism, and advice. This has definitely become one of my favorite classes throughout my college career and has pushed me to do what I've wanted to for years: make progress on a book.

Anyone that dances knows that "normal people" don't necessarily understand the terminology and obviously will not quite understand certain phrases (see 51 Things Only Ballet Dancers Understand). With that said, I could understand why certain people wouldn't enjoy reading or having to edit this novel. But what I have come to learn has been happening after class lets out, isn't justified by an understandable lack of interest or relation.

I found out that about half of the class had been gathering in the evening to gossip about other people's manuscripts both in person and on social media... How immature can it get? College juniors and seniors behaving like preteens with petty comments and low blows. It was disheartening, offensive, and made me completely self-conscious in my future writings.

That sucked.

I almost wish I knew what they had to say, because at least then I could decide for myself whether it was or was not valid. It constantly astounds me how people can stoop to such levels. Bright, intelligent people that are bursting with potential, going against their better judgement and behaving in a way that can be no better be described than with the word, "mean."

I've got to give a shout out to our company's physical therapist on this one, because he summed up the situation conclusively and concisely:

"Some people will never grow up, and you'll find those people everywhere. You've got to rise above that. They're just a rock in your shoe. Forget about it and keep on moving."

Apr 5, 2016

one weekend down

I had been looking forward to that final bow after my first performance as Aurora and it didn't disappoint. A mixture of relief, pride, satisfaction, bliss, and a glowing review created the perfect recipe for the end of a show. Family, friends, and a few of my students came to celebrate with me. I just can't wait to get back out there.

Sometimes I'm afraid that those fleeting moments of complete escape as you become someone (or something) other than yourself, set a tone for the rest of life that will never quite be recreated. Can it ever be as good?